Just as the "just missed" lovebirds departed their separate ways ... a man and older woman sat at the table beside me. I noticed he was nice looking and he's out with an "old" lady so he must be nice. Being that we were sitting close, I caught snippets of their conversation; I was impressed with his knowledge of various topics and again his generosity as he appeared to be someone who looks out for or helps this woman with odd jobs, tasks. This kindness only added to his good looks so I found myself glancing at him, out of the corner of my eye of course. Being that I have excellent peripheral vision, I noticed his periodic glances as well. I made sure I smiled and appeared an open, happy person.
The longer he and his companion sat there a part of me said a little prayer that the woman would at some point notice his interest and encourage him to speak ... or, she would take it upon herself to invite me into a conversation. Alas, this was not to be. As I watched him, slyly watching, them leave the cafe I smiled because I so enjoyed the "exchange" ... the flushed excitement of possibility. After all, my God promised he was sending my husband to me ... I simply have to get out of the way so he can step forward.
I realized something when appreciating the guest Pastor at church the other night. He stated that to open ourselves up to what God has for us, we need to let go of preconceptions, our vision of how it is to come... after all, God knows best ... I'd rather Trust in HIM than my own choices, especially with men ... we see how I've done. That is the past, over and done, door closed. Since hearing the message from God that his husband for me is coming, I fell into a pattern of attempting to picture him, imagining his face, searching for him...getting in my own way and again trying to choose. Thank you for Brother Ekajuba(sp?) to tell me to STOP IT! I'm leaving it to the great matchmaker in the sky!
He has done it for others, I hear many more testimonies to this lately, so I know he is bringing it for me. God is not a man that HE should lie. As a matter of fact, I am working on a project so that all woman will believe that GOOD MEN are indeed out there and they are not all taken. There is an unfortunate trend these days to portray men as idiots or weaklings or players ... reality shows do nothing to change that and don't get me started on the men of sitcoms ... oy vey!
Perhaps what we could use in the media is a reality show based on Christian beliefs, relationships, goodness ... it is out there ... Good MEN are out there. Don't let "reality" tell you otherwise! I'm gathering the proof!
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